Online College tips and supplies: Part One

Hey y’all! It is that time of year again and I can smell the aroma of fresh school supplies just thinking of the month August. As some of y’all might know, I am an online college student/ stay-at-home-mama. I have taken over 60 hours online and honestly, it has been the best thing not only for my family, but for me as a student academically.  I was so nervous going back to school especially doing it online. Which meant I needed to be very dedicated and much of online courses is independent work you teach yourself.

I am a control-freak if you will. I have always been a very independent-I will do it my way type of person. Online college has allowed me to take my personality and apply it to my education. When you’re taking online classes, with most professors, you are given a syllabus with due dates, the rest of it is up to you and you will never hear from your professor again, outside of his remarks on your paper. There is no actual lecture from your teacher. You won’t get youtube videos to watch, notes to write, or even powerpoints. Instead it will be straight textbook work, reading books, and research on the internet. ( I am a history major though, so that is a given anyway)

In order to be successful, you will need to have the set up to become a successful online student. I have put together a “school supply list”, if you will, that I use when studying for my classes. Over the past five semesters, I realized you don’t need much to be successful outside of the drive to get the work done, but here is my list for back-to-online college-supplies:

1.  Laptop and wireless mouse:

Of course if you’re taking online classes, you need a laptop! However, make sure you buy one that is very dependable since your literal class is hosted on that computer. I had an issue once with my Dell Laptop   That took about a week to fix! Lucky for me I had a sister who had an extra laptop I used that week. Outside of that one issue, I  have had this dell computer for two years and use it daily!

The wireless mouse I use is not necessarily a must-have, but it does make usage much easier than the mouse touch-pad on my computer! They are fairly cheap, around ten bucks! Target always has a cartwheel deal every few weeks on wireless mouses.

2. Wireless Printer

Like the wireless mouse, this is not a must-have but it does make life so much easier.For two semesters I wrote everything by hand. Now I either use word, or just print and highlight a document I need for notes/ studying. The one I use is a laser printer by Brother. I got mine at best buy, but I found that Office Depot is having a sale right now: click here

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3. Daily-Weekly Planner

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The planner I got this year was from target and I could not find a link to it! My favorite type of planner is a monthly-daily one! I can write due dates in the monthly, and notes if needs be on the material in the day section. Without a planner, I CAN NOT remember due dates! Even though most test are due certain days of the week like every Thursday, I still love to be able to look at the date and know exactly what I need to submit.

There are plenty of resources out there for free printable planners, with a binder you can make your own!

4. A desk and Chair

DO NOT use your bed as a work space! Trust me, I have done that and let me tell you, nothing is more of a turn off than having to do work in your comfy bed! In order for me to stay focused/ be able to stay organized I have to sit in an actual chair. For me, I don’t have a desk but I do use my dining room table at night to study. In my closet I have a nice little work space set up where I organize all my supplies, books and put my printer, so this way at the end of the night, I can put all my stuff away, access it easily, and still have a dining room table.

Find what works for you, and stick to it! A bed is made for sleeping, a couch for lounging, not studying. 😉

5. Highlighters and Pens

My next blog will feature, tips and tricks to online classes/ studying so I don’t want to get into too much detail.  My life revolves around colored highlighter and pens! Make sure you stock up on pens!!! Unless you’re a math/science major, you won’t need many pencils when taking online classes (unless you prefer to write in pencil) since your test are online and not on a scantron.

6. POST ITs and Page Tabs

Another thing I can’t live without is post-it notes and page tabs! I write post its for everything: My planner, to take notes on certain pages, and to write my daily chores on. Page tabs help me to remember what/where I am studying, or where things are in my notes! Again I organize everything by color!

7. Folders & A binder

You will need things to keep all of your paperwork organized. I print A LOT of notes, quotes from websites, you name it. In order to know where the papers I print are, I organize them by folders!  I have used the same two binders for the last four semesters, I just clear them out for the next semester. No sense in buying new, when you can reuse!

8. A Flash Drive

Since most of your work will be done on the computer, you will need a secure way to save your documents! Work smarter, not harder.

9. Flashcards

Flashcards saved me when I took all of my Spanish courses! They are really great to write quick notes on each chapter or section you’re studying!

10. PAPER, PAPER, PAPER

I print EVERYTHING! When you’re an online student, you don’t get hand outs printed ahead of time by your professor! It is your job to print it out or store it on your computer. For me I like a physical copy of everything. I also use a five course spiral so I can organize all of my notes in ONE notebook!

And there you have it, my list of the top ten things that keeps me organized and prepared as a student! Again, learn yourself and understand how you best study. What works for me, may not work for you. Keep on the look out for my next blog for online college study tips!

Until next time, hugs from Texas,

-C

 

25 to life…

December 30, 2016 sitting inside a pizza buffet stuffing down slice after slice, coke after coke instead of really wanting to go play with my son in the kids play area. Not that I didn’t want to but I was this animal who could not control my urges, or what I ate. Pizza, all of it, as much as I could eat was sitting right in front of me. I indulge and enjoyed it, but the more I ate the less happy I actually became. That pizza didn’t taste good nor was I hungry, but I just kept going.

Leaving Incredible Pizza that day, I knew I was in trouble and this burning desire to do better . My entire life up until this point as been about self-indulgence, which helped me drown my anxious ways; or perhaps it was because of my anxious ways, I always binged.  Either way, I was killing myself and not thinking about the hurt my son would have knowing his mom chose food over him, essentially. My addiction had a hold of me, I was ready to be untied.

I was 25, this was it. That day I decided enough was enough and ironically the song, “25 to life” by Eminem played on shuffle when I was really beating myself up for my addictive ways.  Never the less, this song became my motivation to drown my old self, and emerge a stronger and better person, someone I have never been.  Even though I wasn’t sure if I loved myself enough to do better, I knew without a doubt in my existence, the love I have for my son is more than anything I have ever known and nothing I mean nothing, not my own mind, would ever take me away from him.

Let me break down the lyrics, now Eminem is obviously talking about the music industry and his fame, but for me, his song I apply to my old self (my mind) vs the new one (mind).

Too late for the other side
Caught in a chase, 25 to life (at this point I was 25 so it was easy to apply this lyric to my life)
Too late for the other side
Caught in a chase, 25 to life
Too late
I can’t keep chasing ’em
I’m taking my life back (amen, it was time for a life change)
Caught in a chase, 25 to life

……….

I no longer cry for you, no more pain
Bitch, you took me for granted
Took my heart and ran it straight into the planet
Into the dirt, I can no longer stand it
Now my respect, I demand it
I’ma take control of this relationship, command it (take control of my life and my habits) 
And I’ma be the boss of you now, goddamn it
And what I mean is that I will no longer let you control me
So you better hear me out, this much you owe me

(all about my inner struggle and battling my own thoughts)

Yeah, funny, ain’t it? You neglected me (I have always took care of others, but never realized what I was doing to myself)
Did me a favor, though, my spirit free you’ve set
But a special place for you in my heart I have kept
It’s unfortunate, but it’s…

(but because of these struggles, I have been able to use them for my strength to keep going)

But tonight I’m serving you with papers; I’m divorcing you
Go marry someone else and make ’em famous!
And take away their freedom like you did to me

Treat ’em like you don’t need ’em
And they ain’t worthy of you
Feed ’em the same shit that you made me eat
I’m moving on, forget you
Oh, now I’m special? I ain’t feel special when I was with you
All I ever felt was this helplessness
Imprisoned by a selfish bitch
Chew me up and spit me out, I fell for this
So many times it’s ridiculous
And still I stick with this, I’m sick of this
But in my sickness and addiction you’re addictive as they get
Evil as they come, vindictive as they make ’em
My friends keep askin’ me why I can’t just walk away from
I’m addicted to the pain, the stress, the drama
I’m drawn to shit, I guess I’m a mess, cursed and blessed
But this time I ain’t changin’ my mind
I’m climbin’ out this abyss
You’re screamin’ as I walk out that I’ll be missed
But when you spoke of people
Who meant the most to you, you left me off your list

(one hundred percent my inner struggles…. no matter what, I couldn’t break my addictive ways no matter how many times I tried before, but at this point, it was mental more than it was a want for physical change. I did not want to be bound by anything and food was holding me down. I was no longer me, but someone I didn’t recognize)

Many lyrics in this song, I literally apply to my life and my personal relationship with myself. I feel as though there was me, and now there is ME.  I am choosing my life. I am choosing to love me. and I am choosing to beat an addiction that would day put me into the ground, sooner than later.

I am worth it, you are worth it. Don’t let anything bound you, not even your own mind!

so here is too all of you who share my struggles…. 

I’m not saying that everyone should swim with sharks, but sometimes you have to jump over your own shadow in order to learn something that you will never forget for the rest of your life. Then you know you can conquer your fears. -Heidi Klum

Truthful Thursday’s.

Well howdy y’all! It is Thursday and for some of you today might be your Friday, since Good Friday is tomorrow…. Here in Texas is is humid and nasty! It has been raining all week, booo!

So some life updates:

  1. We have spent the last two weekends finishing up the old chicken coop and new chicken run. Y’all we spent 24 hrs of our 48 hr weekend, building this past weekend. I got so sunburned (yes I had sunscreen on) and my arms are sore. We made a 25 ft long pallet wall, and of course, we couldn’t make it an easier, we broke each pallet up by hand!!!!! The place is looking nice and I CAN NOT WAIT TO GIVE Y’ALL farm update blog!
  2. I Started watching my best friend’s daughter during the weeks! Having two kids has been a blast but there is double the clean up. My son is enjoying having someone other than me to play with.
  3. Speaking of KIDS, my husband is begging for another baby….. y’allllllll we may be planning a baby! I am so nervous, I could throw up just thinking about doing pregnancy again, especially after working this hard to lose weight! This time I am going to make sure I remain swimming and eating right, this way the bounce back doesn’t take me *cough four years*
  4. Speaking of pregnancy- the DR., I went to visit my DR on Monday and she was so happy to see my progress!!! She told me at this point, I would be good to go for a healthy pregnancy and my weight is no longer an issue. I told her if I could lose another 25 more pounds, I would be willing to get my IUD removed…. EEEEK! We had a great visit just chatting! It is wonderful to finally have a Dr. that not only cares, but takes enough time out of her day to get to know you, for you! My life change when I met Dr. Clark, so for that Dr. Clark, THANK YOU.
  5. My son’s b-day is coming up next week. So there’s that another happy – tearful day for me.
  6. MY WEIGHT: I don’t have my phone on me so I would be lying if I gave you an exact number but I have broke another 10 pounds on the scale.. YIIIIPEE.. I am getting comfortable to the point of posting pic’s online for the world to see isn’t as scary! BECAUSE I know I be looking goodddd hahah.
  7. FINALLLLLLY, speaking of looking good, I BOUGHT MY FIRST ROMPER! AND I wore it to see ADAM SANDLER preform live in SugarLand, Tx of Tuesday. He is my childhood favorite, and favorite actor to this day!

That is all of the life updates I can think of for now, but I will leave you with this Q & A:

  1. Are you named after anyone? Nope
  2. When was the last time you cried? Sunday, listening to a song that reminded me of my Dad
  3. Do you have kids? Yap.
  4. If you were another person, would you be a friend of yourself? Oh great question, I probably would, but would myself befriend another person?! 
  5. Do you use sarcasm a lot? I am fluent in sarcasm.
  6. What’s the first thing you notice about people? Eyes.
  7. What is your eye color? green/hazel
  8. Scary movie or happy endings? Scary, everyone dies. haha.
  9. Favorite smells? The smell of fresh bread baking.
  10. What’s the furthest you’ve ever been from home? Honduras
  11. Do you have any special talents? Procrastination and the art of BULL SHITTING.
  12. Where were you born? In a hospital. 
  13. What are your hobbies? raising babies, feeding mouths I can’t afford to feed. 
  14. Do you have any pets? Too many
  15. Do you have any siblings? I claim two maybe 3 on a good day, but I have four sisters.
  16. What do you want to be when you grow up? Successful.
  17. Who was your first best friend? oh first bestie, hmmm That was too many years ago.
  18. How tall are you? 5’4″
  19. Funniest moment throughout School? When I punched a kid at swim practice for running his mouth and my coach pulled me aside ( I knew for sure I was in trouble) but then told me I should break his nose next time.
  20. How many countries have you visited? 4
  21. What was your favorite/worst subject in High School? Athletics/Sciences
  22. What is your Favorite drink? Animal? Perfume? I have already answered these numerous times…. water, dogs and daisy 
  23. What would you (or have you) name your children? Hunter
  24. What Sports do you play/Have you played? Dancing, cheerleading, swimming, volleyball, soccer, track… 
  25. Who are some of your favorite YouTubers? ummm idk
  26. How many Girlfriends/Boyfriends have you had? lol real 2 that I cared about. 51646351 that i didn’t
  27. Favorite memory from childhood? My family.
  28. How would you describe your fashion sense? black leggings everyday kind of gal. 
  29. What phone do you have? (iOS v Android?) IPHONE ALL DAY!
  30. Tell us one of your bad habits! biting my nails! 

Manic Monday

HI Y’ALL!!

 

IT is another beautiful day here in Texas and I am in a mood today. Yesterday morning we had terrible storms and this weekend was a failure on projects around the farm. I feel like a failure, we didn’t do much this weekend…. but yet I still feel like we haven’t slowed down.  Last night, I kept waking up in full blown panic attacks. For some reason my anxiety is really high and I am not sure what the trigger is this time. Again, today Is a great day but I keep having those moments of heart palpitations and feelings of sudden doom.  Breathe. I just need some sunshine in my life I suppose.

My son’s birthday is at the end of this month and I have absolutely NO clue what to do for this boy. If you know me, since he was born, this is the latest I have been on ANYTHING planning wise. I am a planner, and a doer, way ahead(er) type of person! This kid needs nothing… I do not want and will not purchase any toys. HE WILL NOT PLAY WITH TOYS, this kid loves being outside, and he has every ball and outside crap item you can think of…. SOOOO I THINK we are going to surprise him with a day at Six Flags and their water-park! I mean what better gift than a memory, and yes I know he isn’t going to remember this… but he won’t remember any plastic toy I could give him. We, as a family love spending time together, and WHY NOT take him on his first thrill rides, he is tall enough now for a lot of them!? I did buy season passes to the local water park for his b-day, just like I didn’t last year, but maybe he will be getting six flag passes too… we shall see!

I feel like I need to get into a pool and swim but I do not feel like swimming. I think once my hubby gets home I will force myself to go do some laps. I really want to step outside of my comfort zone and join a Hiit or boot camp class, but I am way to anti-social and still feel way too out of shape. I HAVE however made friends with all the swimmers that come daily at the same time. They’re all way older than me but hey, once a swimmer always a swimmer. I even met this old retired school teacher who lived actually in the same neighborhood I grew up in and NOW LIVES on property literally down the road from me, maybe a 10 min walk! SMALL WORLD! I met a gentleman who is an avid iron-man competitor, he’s got the TAT to prove it. I secretly try to race him when he is swimming laps. LMAO, he has no idea, but I have to push myself don’t I?!

 

I really don’t know how to end this blog, or even what the point was, so thank you for getting this far… but I do know I am not myself today… I am however, very proud of myself for recognizing this. Some days it is hard to realize that how I am feeling is not who I am. I will get through it and just needed a distraction for a second.

If you have got this far, I REALLY WANT TO KNOW WHERE YOU ARE FROM!!!!

SO PLEASE LEAVE A COMMENT BELOW AND LET ME KNOW WHERE IN THE WORLD ARE YOU!? AND IF YOU’RE FEELING NICE, TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF! I am new to this blogging world and would love to meet some fellow bloggers!

 

hugs y’all, with much love,

c

Thursday Q & A’s

If you have any fun questions for me, leave them in a comment below! I will tag your blog in the next Q&A post! 🙂 Happy reading, we’re almost done with the week!

32 Random Questions:

1.) Do you sleep with your closet doors open or closed?.

I have two closets in our room, mine stays shut, ALWAYS; my husband can never shut his door, so it depends if I shut it before laying down or not! 🙂
2.) Do you take shampoo and conditioner bottles from hotels?

No I can’t say I do, my sister does! 
3.) Do you sleep with your sheets tucked in or out?.

I don’t put the flat sheet on my bed, ha! Only the guest bed has them, I find them annoying!
4.) Have you ever stolen a street sign?

Negative..
5.) Do you cut out coupons and then never use them?

ALWAYS!
6.) Would you rather be attacked by a big bear or a swarm of bees?

bees, please.
7.)Do you always smile for pictures?

yes.
8.) Do you ever count your steps when you walk?

I have.
9.) Have you ever peed in the woods?

lol yes, I live in the woods, what ya think.
10.) Do you still watch cartoons?

if I am with my son.
11.) Where would you bury hidden treasure if you had some?

HMMM, it wouldn’t be hidden if I said, now would it?!
12.) What do you drink with dinner?

WATER, 24/7.
13.) What do you dip a chicken nugget in?

Nothing.
14.) What movies could you watch over and over and still love?

Waterboy.
15.) Were you ever a girl scout?

Nope.
16.) Would you ever strip or pose nude in a magazine?

How much money are we talking.
17.) Can you change the oil on your car?

No, but I can check it. hehe.
18.) Have you ever gotten a speeding ticket?

yes.
19.) Afraid of heights?

yes and no?!
20.) Do you sing in the car?

ALWAYS
21.) Is Christmas stressful?

it can be, but I prepare early.
22.) Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid.

Tornado chaser
23.) Do you believe in ghosts?

Yes.

24.) The first concert you ever went to.

Brittney spears.

25.) Walmart, Target, or Kmart?

TARGET
26.) Nike or Adidas?

NIKE
27.) Can you curl your tongue?

Yes.
28.) Have you ever cried because you were so happy?

No.
29.) The last concert you saw?

Hmmm, whatever concert it was at the rodeo last year.
30.) Can you swim well?

i was a swimmer for 14 years and captain of my high school swim team. 
31.) Can you knit of crochet?

no. I am not that domesticated.
32.) Are you a dog person or a cat person?

I hate cats, and I have three dogs (five at one point), you tell me. 

 

  • Coming up soon on the blog- How to build a cheap DIY chicken tractor and how getting married young changes everything! Plus, I will be updating my weight loss journey next week! Happy Thursday yall. Remember, be good or be good at it!

FriYAY

Happy Friday Y’all!

My Husband & I have always lived very spontaneously. Since we first started dating we have always just woken up with a wild hair to go live life and we pack up and take random road (sometimes day) trips . Yesterday was no different.

We wake up with our son right in between us and H can’t believe his Daddy is right next to him. He ask, “is it Saturday?!” It was confusing to his little three-year old mind. Normally, my husband leaves for work around 6 AM if not a little sooner. Yesterday, he was actually called to work in the city we lived in so he was able to sleep in. When he checked his jobs for the day, wellll it was a slow day so he called his co-worker and asked him if he wanted his few jobs and the guy welcomed the work. So my hubby and I were like what do you want to do today, I knew the laundry needed to be done and I needed to write a paper that was due [today], so I was excited at the thought of his extra help! That’s when our son suggested going to the beach. Next thing I know, it was around 11 AM and we were in Galveston, Texas in Target buying kite’s and sandcastle equipment!

Yesterday wasn’t my paper’s due date, so it wasn’t the “do” date either hehe. Oh well, I will get it done by midnight tonight. We had so much fun! I didn’t take photos, we left our phones in the truck when we were playing at the beach. We flew kites, played a game of family soccer (my husband cheats), and I was able to job two miles next to the Gulf! Plus we stopped at our favorite, FISHTALES and ate crab legs (my sons fav). We were home by 8 PM and I was able to get two loads of laundry done!

I am truly blessed to have the relationship I have with both my son and husband. I am so thankful such a strong family bond that we have created. I only hope to raise my son to love unconditionally,  commit wholeheartedly, and to never take life for granted; if given the choice to slow down and treasure a moment, seize it! The world can wait (with responsibility)

In truth I suspect that merely slowing down is not a very satisfying answer. What I need has less to do with my pace of life than my peace of life. At any speed, I crave a deep and lasting inner peace. And if it’s solace I’m after, I don’t need to pace myself like a turtle, change jobs or set up house on a quiet island. It is usually frenetic living, not high energy, that robs my peace of mind.”
― Steve Goodier

This is me…

This is me, all that I am is before me in the mirror. One day I love myself for my strength and determination, and other days I see myself hatred and denial I lived in for so long. This journey is not about my weight. Well it is, but for me it is much deeper than that. When I look at myself, I see a reflection of what I have done. You see pounds, I see my struggles; What I have allowed to rule me. I went from a bottle, to food. One addiction to the next, I was weak, and sometimes I feel that hopelessness all over again. I feel sad.

Mentally, I try to be strong but I can’t always be. For so long I have focused on my family but never once stopped to look in the mirror. I wear my stress well outwardly, but internally I am roaring. When I see myself now, I know this weight is cloak of my internal feelings. Feelings I no longer feel or even want to feel.

I find out more and more stuff about me, the more I connect with myself. For me, being alone is the only way I can do that. Alone; no phone, no distractions, just myself and my thoughts. Something that scared me for so long.

This is my truth. These are my thoughts. I know I am not alone, but I am alone, and for once I am okay with this. I thank my Lord Jesus Christ for saving me. I thank Him everyday for the new day and for allowing me to have choices in every part of my life. I have taken control of the fact every day is a decision for me, every day I HAVE TO DO BETTER, and every day since, I grow stronger.

If you’re reading this and you struggle like I do, know you’re worth it. You can do better if you put your mind to it. Think good thoughts and shove out the bad ones. You are very loved and you were made uniquely in His image.

-with very much love,

C

 

Get To Know Me In 25

Hi guys, I know I write A LOT of whatever comes to my mind… but other than my views and random rambles, I don’t know if I ever answered anything about who I AM in simple form… and in case if you ever wonder, you’re just in luck… (don’t worry not offended if you don’t care. hehe) I actually found this on: Megan Has OCD’s blog

25 Get to Know Me Q’s

1. What is your middle name?: Nicole. Don’t ask me why, I feel like that is a normal middle name.

2. What was favorite subject at school?: High school: hmmm, anything other than science. I cared more about the swim team than “classes”. I did make A’s though and graduate with college hours. College: I love HISTORY or english classes.

3. What is your favorite drink?:  Water with lemon.

I don’t like tea and I was addicted to Coke’s or Dr. Peppers but I refuse to drink those again.

4. What is your favorite song at the moment?: Hmmm let me think,  Shelter From the Rain by Whiskey Myers!

*I will do a work out playlist soon*

5. What is your favorite food?:  MY FAV FOOD EVER is, Chicken Picatta!

6. What is the last thing you bought?:  A new wallet

7. Favorite book of all time?:  Bread Givers by Anzia Yezierska

8. Favorite Color?:  Red

9. Do you have any pets?:  Tons; Goats, Pigs, Chickens, Dogs!

10. Favorite Perfume?: 2132734_fpx

11. Favorite Holiday?: I don’t really have one. Christmas is special to me because of my son other than that, I don’t have one.

12. Are you married?: I AM, going on 7 years.

13. Have you ever been out of the country, if so how many times?: I have. I am not too sure about how many times but I have been all over South America!

14. Do you speak any other language?:  I only speak English, I am however taking spanish course and while I can’t speak it very well yet, I can listen to conversations in public and know what they’re saying.. it’s very funny, I love it.

15. How many siblings do you have?: Its debatable. hahaha JK I have four.

16. What is your favorite shop?:  I SHOP at ulta A LOT. HOBBY LOBBY takes the cake though.

17. Favorite restaurant?: Fish Tales.

18. When was the last time you cried?:  Thinking of my father on my birthday.

19. Favorite Blog?: I have a TON of favs; I will for sure do a blog post about them!

20. Favorite Movie?: I don’t have the attention span to really have a favorite movie. I have never seen the notebook, shock! I DID love to watch Adam Sandler when I was younger. Billy Madison, Happy Gilmore, and the Waterboy I could recite the entire movie still to this day. THEY will always be my FAV and timeless to me.

21. Favorite TV shows?: Oh where do I start?! Currently I love watching:

The Walking Dead

Quanitco

The Affair

Scandal

MTV Challenges

Big Brother

In the past:

Son’s of Anarchy

Breaking Bad

22. PC or Mac?:  PC all the way, since the 90’s!

23. What phone do you have?: IPHONE 7Plus

24. How tall are you?: 5’4″

25. Can you cook?: Yes. I am known for my cooking. NO ONE comes to my HOUSE EVER, and leave with an empty stomach! I Refuse to conform to recipes, everything you eat in my home is homemade from my heart! I BELIEVE IN SHOWING LOVE THROUGH THE STOMACH! ASK anyone I know!

The Monday after…

HI GUYS! I am a very happy and blessed lady! This weekend was way more amazing than I thought it would be. I will give you all the little details, and I openly admit my lack of self-control this weekend. We very much indulged, Happy Birthday to me.

My husband is so good to me. We have been married since 2010 and I was only 19 when I married him. I won’t lie, sometimes I wondered why I would have made such a commitment at such a young age, but I do not regret it at all. The more we have grown together, the stronger we have become as a couple. I do not feel ashamed to admit, I love this man a hell of a lot more than the day I married him. He has always been so patient with me and he treats me like the Princess my Dad always told me I was. (yes, I was a spoiled Daddy’s girl, now I am a spoiled wife). Ajers and I haven’t always gotten along, the beginning of our marriage was hell, for the both of us. primarily it was my fault, I suffered with severe depression and anxiety, and I didn’t know who I was as a person. I for sure didn’t love myself, so how was Ajers ever suppose to love me. It wasn’t until probably year five we really started getting it together.  Young love. My forever love. You’re too good to me.

Enough of the love mush, what is important now is to focus on the real issue here,

I GAINED 3.5 POUNDS OVER THE WEEKEND

So Friday night I was starting to feel under the weather. (my son had been battling a cold and double ear infection) the only thing I wanted was soup! I needed to warm my soul and have some feel good food before our big weekend trip. My mom and I made our way to Panera Bread, of course I had to get soup and I had to order bake potato and half of a kale/romaine caesar chicken salad. IT WAS SO GOOD AND JUST what I needed. The weather here friday was BLAH, it was one of those BLAH day’s and that soup warmed my soul.

Saturday, MY BIRTHDAY, we wake up, get ourselves loaded up and headed to CHICKFILA, because it was MY BIRTHDAY AND I WAS GOING TO HAVE A CHICKEN BISCUIT because guess what I AM ALIVE and I wanted a biscuit for my birthday! ( I know a huge mistake but a very yummy one) and yes there is chicken on that. hehe16298715_10154199356960887_6681432068580360677_n

We then dropped my baby off at my sister’s house and headed on to our ADULT weekend. I was so excited! My husband got me the FitBit I have been wanting. I had my original fitbit from two years ago and it worked just fine, but I am a sucker for black and gold things. AHHHHHHH and when I saw the fitbit Alta, I knew I needed that! After getting it setup, I had to get my steps in so we stopped at the Tanger outlet mall on the way to Galveston. We literally walked 12,000 steps when we were there! I scored a new birthday dress and a new Michael Kors wallet. (heheh thanks again BABE)16388204_10154199391260887_1919877278882982956_n.jpg

Now here is where I derailed:

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The view from the room

FIRST STOP: MY FAVORITE PLACE TO EAT IN GALVESTON, Fish Tales. (Lord forgive me)

This was my birthday lunch/dinner! (we never went to dinner because I was still way too full from eating this)

The appetizer was called shrimp kisses which was, shrimp stuffed with jalapeno and pepper jack cheese wrapped in bacon! OMGGGG I had three of those and did only eat TWO onion rings. AND THAT SALAD YALL WAS THE BOMB DIGGITY! It was a shrimp/crab cobb salad. I took off the tomatoes and blue cheese. I don’t like salad dressings, not even ranch, so no biggie for me. I AM OBSESSED WITH LEMON so it went perfectly on this salad. Put a fork in me and call me done, my husband had to roll me out of there. After “dinner” we took a walk down the beach… I had to or I was gonna throw up. We saw a pregnancy photo shoot, and witnessed a wedding of two people eloping. It was a very beautiful day! I hadn’t been that happy in a long TIME.

Okay so you know it was my bday, and this mama had to have an excuse to have a cake… CHILI’S chocolate molten cake was calling my name, so after walking for four hours, we reached chili’s and split the cake… yessss I shamefully admit it, but it tasted great then. sigh. AND TO ADD INSULT TO THE INJURY, we stopped at Spec’s Liquor and picked up……

  • Crown
  • Watermelon Pucker
  • Redbull

You know what that makes, a very drunk night… Together in the hotel room alone my husband and I drank half the bottle of crown and woke up with a hangover….. IT WAS A GOOD NIGHT, but man was it worth it, probably not. Living life….

The next morning I knew I f’d up. I AM STILL SO BLOATED! We WALKED from our hotel down a few blocks to the Ihop and man food tasted so heavenly after the night before. This is what I ordered:Egg white veggie omelet with bacon and a bowl of fruit.16299162_10154199356815887_2545203330388526392_n

One the way home, we stopped at Lupe Tortilla’s and since I was like screw it, I already f’d up this weekend, I ordered my beef fajita tacos but I could only eat 1/4 of it… SHAME, hanging my head but still smiling about it.

Through it all, I have may gained 3 plus pounds back in three-day but I lived a little this weekend. I knew I was splurging and I can tell you this Monday Morning I am paying for those choices. I know what I need to do to get back on track but overall I had a really, really wonderful time living with my husband. We hadn’t been on a date or just together alone in over a year! It is okay to live a little, but never okay lose focus. This week I will be eating nothing but whole foods, I need to up my water intake to recover and RUNNING is going to be on my first item on my to-do list everyday this week on top of my yoga and weights!

I hope each and every one of you had a wonderful weekend.

-c

The river is constantly turning and bending and you never know where it’s going to go and where you’ll wind up. Following the bend in the river and staying on your own path means that you are on the right track. Don’t let anyone deter you from that.

-Eartha Kitt

Thursday

Happy Thursday y’all…. YOU want me to hit you with the good news or the bad first?! Okay lets start off by proudly announcing, the scale moved and I officially hit 15 POUNDS gone since 12.30.16! WHATTTT, I am beyond thrilled, though it moved only a pound for the last week, it is still moving and not going back up!

So for my last two-days, oh just wait, my hot water heater broke yesterday which to replace and install cost me a total of $995! My computer cord stopped charging, so I am waiting on Dell to send me a new one. (mind you I just bought this laptop two months ago!), FML. LAST night my son wakes up screaming his ear hurts, so off to the doctor we go this A.M., and I am pretty sure it’s an ear infection. LETS ADD THE TOPPING TO THIS SHIT CAKE NOW, MY DRYER BROKE THIS MORNING!!!!!!!!!! HOW AM I SUPPOSE to go have a nice “relaxing vaca” with just the hubby this weekend, with all of this shit going on….. We never take time for ourselves and the minute we spend money on a very nice hotel, everything wants to break…. breaking my heart I will tell ya.

Of course, my struggles are not near as bad as others. My stuff can be replaced, but it is so frustrating to deal with all of this. I didn’t sleep last night and I have three test and a paper to write by midnight tomorrow. I swear some days I feel so good, but today my anxiety is so high! I can feel it in my hands. Do you ever get that?! I clench my fist a lot when I am stressed! I can do this. I can do this. I can do this. How many times do I need to think this, until I believe myself. Needless to say, I AM taking a break today and not working out this A.M.!  OH WELL…. off to the doctors we go!

Have a blessed day y’all!

With much love,

C

Happiness is a choice. You can choose to be happy. There’s going to be stress in life, but it’s your choice whether you let it affect you or not.

-Valerie Bertinelli