IT is another beautiful day here in Texas and I am in a mood today. Yesterday morning we had terrible storms and this weekend was a failure on projects around the farm. I feel like a failure, we didn’t do much this weekend…. but yet I still feel like we haven’t slowed down. Last night, I kept waking up in full blown panic attacks. For some reason my anxiety is really high and I am not sure what the trigger is this time. Again, today Is a great day but I keep having those moments of heart palpitations and feelings of sudden doom. Breathe. I just need some sunshine in my life I suppose.
My son’s birthday is at the end of this month and I have absolutely NO clue what to do for this boy. If you know me, since he was born, this is the latest I have been on ANYTHING planning wise. I am a planner, and a doer, way ahead(er) type of person! This kid needs nothing… I do not want and will not purchase any toys. HE WILL NOT PLAY WITH TOYS, this kid loves being outside, and he has every ball and outside crap item you can think of…. SOOOO I THINK we are going to surprise him with a day at Six Flags and their water-park! I mean what better gift than a memory, and yes I know he isn’t going to remember this… but he won’t remember any plastic toy I could give him. We, as a family love spending time together, and WHY NOT take him on his first thrill rides, he is tall enough now for a lot of them!? I did buy season passes to the local water park for his b-day, just like I didn’t last year, but maybe he will be getting six flag passes too… we shall see!
I feel like I need to get into a pool and swim but I do not feel like swimming. I think once my hubby gets home I will force myself to go do some laps. I really want to step outside of my comfort zone and join a Hiit or boot camp class, but I am way to anti-social and still feel way too out of shape. I HAVE however made friends with all the swimmers that come daily at the same time. They’re all way older than me but hey, once a swimmer always a swimmer. I even met this old retired school teacher who lived actually in the same neighborhood I grew up in and NOW LIVES on property literally down the road from me, maybe a 10 min walk! SMALL WORLD! I met a gentleman who is an avid iron-man competitor, he’s got the TAT to prove it. I secretly try to race him when he is swimming laps. LMAO, he has no idea, but I have to push myself don’t I?!
I really don’t know how to end this blog, or even what the point was, so thank you for getting this far… but I do know I am not myself today… I am however, very proud of myself for recognizing this. Some days it is hard to realize that how I am feeling is not who I am. I will get through it and just needed a distraction for a second.
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hugs y’all, with much love,