UPDATE: December 2017

WELL HELLO WORLD AGAIN!

It is me, no I did not get lost! I just finished probably the hardest semester yet and it is with great pride I announce I pulled off ANOTHER 4.0 semester and let me tell you, it is not easy!

Since we last spoke, I have been able to maintain my weight loss, but I have literally not lost a single pounds since August. I have fluctuated the same five pounds, back and forth, but if we are being honest, my diet has been SHIT!

Have I relapsed binge eating?  Yes and no. I can not lie to y’all, there have been days where my anxiety has been sky-high and I lost control. I immediately feel the guilt associated with my actions, and every day has been a struggle for me to do better!

With January coming up and the start of a new year, I know I have to get back on the ball again. I accomplished so much in the year 2017, and I CAN NOT let my demons keep a hold of me.  Through all of my struggles this year, I have grown this new strength.

2017, while you were a bitch, you were good to me. I learned A LOT this year, and I am very excited to set my 2018 goals!

My first goal: GET BACK TO BLOGGING AND STAYING ACCOUNTABLE! Get back on my grind because this years goal is another 30 pounds! I have still a long road ahead of me, but I am still trucking along.

Until next time,

C

Tips for College Students: SAHM Edition

Being a mom is hard enough, and so is being a student! Finding a balance between the two on some days seems impossible. If you ask my son right now what his mama’s job is, he will tell you writing papers! Cracks me up. It does seem like all I do is write papers and answer short answers. When you take online courses, I have notice the pattern is writing! I remember the scantron days, multiple choice tests… but in online school everything is papers or short essays. Makes sense on the academic honesty sides of things for online students, and it works for me since I actually enjoy writing.

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So if you’re thinking about going back to school or switching to online courses, here are some tips that I have learned about taking classes online.


1. Fill out a Fasfa and apply for scholarships: there is FREE money there!

Even if you think you don’t qualify for financial aid, fill out a Fasfa anyway! Financial aid has been the reason we have been able to invest in my education.  I actually was denied financial aid when I went back to college, and let me tell you, actually paying for classes taught me to be a responsible student. Since going back, I have had to fight another denial with appeals to the school board! I was finally approved after showing them I was serious about my goals by achieving good grades.

Like anything, trying to get scholarships or financial aid takes A LOT OF WORK. The money is out there though, but you will have to dig for it. Outside of my financial aid, I did receive a scholarship for this school year. I applied to many, but got one and I am forever grateful I even got that! To me filling out 100 applications and short essays is worth any amount of free money for my education!

2. Set a schedule

Many of my classes follow a pattern when it comes to due dates. For example: Weekly journals due on Tuesday’s,  Quizzes and Test on Friday’s, and Discussion questions Sunday’s.

I get most of my work done in the morning’s before my son wakes up, or after he goes to bed, and also on Sunday’s! Thank goodness for my husband being so supportive and running the tribe while I step out to study. I hate working on school work Sunday’s especially during the fall, but sometime it is necessary if I don’t get my course work done during the week. While I have to be responsible for my class work, I am also responsible for my son and to be honest there are some days where I just don’t get much done.

If I can stick with my mornings, and Sunday’s, I stay ahead and on track with my course work!

3. Get Organized

Write in your planner (EVERYTHING), keep your papers in order, keep your computer updated, have a decent area to study (a bed is not the place), and keep your home tidy! Life is already stressful enough. You must stay ahead, and prepared for your studies! Things are easily forgotten and the house gets dirty quick.

4.  Respect Time

Life in general is already so busy. We tend to want to rush things and if you’re anything like me, you just want to get college done with! But slow down. Know how many hours you can take, while being an active mom. Don’t forget that just because you took 18 hours last semester, you might want to only take 12 hrs. since you are taking a course you already know will give you hell this semester! Besides when you just try to rush through courses, you aren’t really learning much! Slow down with life, you’ll get there some day.

5.  Take Care of Yourself

As a mom, wife, student, and little farmer…. I tend to think of myself last and usually those are the times I find myself most stressed. While school, your family, and animals are priorities, so are you! You need to make sure you have a good diet, exercise , and get plenty of sleep at night! (I love doing cleaning power hours! Nothing like cleaning with a little cardio)


Enjoy the ride, and know you are very capable of achieving any goal you have set! There is literally nothing stopping you, and with a little dedication you too can become a successful student/ parent! The tools and resources are out there, it is up to you to find them!

Hugs from Texas,

-C

 

Online College tips and supplies: Part One

Hey y’all! It is that time of year again and I can smell the aroma of fresh school supplies just thinking of the month August. As some of y’all might know, I am an online college student/ stay-at-home-mama. I have taken over 60 hours online and honestly, it has been the best thing not only for my family, but for me as a student academically.  I was so nervous going back to school especially doing it online. Which meant I needed to be very dedicated and much of online courses is independent work you teach yourself.

I am a control-freak if you will. I have always been a very independent-I will do it my way type of person. Online college has allowed me to take my personality and apply it to my education. When you’re taking online classes, with most professors, you are given a syllabus with due dates, the rest of it is up to you and you will never hear from your professor again, outside of his remarks on your paper. There is no actual lecture from your teacher. You won’t get youtube videos to watch, notes to write, or even powerpoints. Instead it will be straight textbook work, reading books, and research on the internet. ( I am a history major though, so that is a given anyway)

In order to be successful, you will need to have the set up to become a successful online student. I have put together a “school supply list”, if you will, that I use when studying for my classes. Over the past five semesters, I realized you don’t need much to be successful outside of the drive to get the work done, but here is my list for back-to-online college-supplies:

1.  Laptop and wireless mouse:

Of course if you’re taking online classes, you need a laptop! However, make sure you buy one that is very dependable since your literal class is hosted on that computer. I had an issue once with my Dell Laptop   That took about a week to fix! Lucky for me I had a sister who had an extra laptop I used that week. Outside of that one issue, I  have had this dell computer for two years and use it daily!

The wireless mouse I use is not necessarily a must-have, but it does make usage much easier than the mouse touch-pad on my computer! They are fairly cheap, around ten bucks! Target always has a cartwheel deal every few weeks on wireless mouses.

2. Wireless Printer

Like the wireless mouse, this is not a must-have but it does make life so much easier.For two semesters I wrote everything by hand. Now I either use word, or just print and highlight a document I need for notes/ studying. The one I use is a laser printer by Brother. I got mine at best buy, but I found that Office Depot is having a sale right now: click here

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3. Daily-Weekly Planner

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The planner I got this year was from target and I could not find a link to it! My favorite type of planner is a monthly-daily one! I can write due dates in the monthly, and notes if needs be on the material in the day section. Without a planner, I CAN NOT remember due dates! Even though most test are due certain days of the week like every Thursday, I still love to be able to look at the date and know exactly what I need to submit.

There are plenty of resources out there for free printable planners, with a binder you can make your own!

4. A desk and Chair

DO NOT use your bed as a work space! Trust me, I have done that and let me tell you, nothing is more of a turn off than having to do work in your comfy bed! In order for me to stay focused/ be able to stay organized I have to sit in an actual chair. For me, I don’t have a desk but I do use my dining room table at night to study. In my closet I have a nice little work space set up where I organize all my supplies, books and put my printer, so this way at the end of the night, I can put all my stuff away, access it easily, and still have a dining room table.

Find what works for you, and stick to it! A bed is made for sleeping, a couch for lounging, not studying. 😉

5. Highlighters and Pens

My next blog will feature, tips and tricks to online classes/ studying so I don’t want to get into too much detail.  My life revolves around colored highlighter and pens! Make sure you stock up on pens!!! Unless you’re a math/science major, you won’t need many pencils when taking online classes (unless you prefer to write in pencil) since your test are online and not on a scantron.

6. POST ITs and Page Tabs

Another thing I can’t live without is post-it notes and page tabs! I write post its for everything: My planner, to take notes on certain pages, and to write my daily chores on. Page tabs help me to remember what/where I am studying, or where things are in my notes! Again I organize everything by color!

7. Folders & A binder

You will need things to keep all of your paperwork organized. I print A LOT of notes, quotes from websites, you name it. In order to know where the papers I print are, I organize them by folders!  I have used the same two binders for the last four semesters, I just clear them out for the next semester. No sense in buying new, when you can reuse!

8. A Flash Drive

Since most of your work will be done on the computer, you will need a secure way to save your documents! Work smarter, not harder.

9. Flashcards

Flashcards saved me when I took all of my Spanish courses! They are really great to write quick notes on each chapter or section you’re studying!

10. PAPER, PAPER, PAPER

I print EVERYTHING! When you’re an online student, you don’t get hand outs printed ahead of time by your professor! It is your job to print it out or store it on your computer. For me I like a physical copy of everything. I also use a five course spiral so I can organize all of my notes in ONE notebook!

And there you have it, my list of the top ten things that keeps me organized and prepared as a student! Again, learn yourself and understand how you best study. What works for me, may not work for you. Keep on the look out for my next blog for online college study tips!

Until next time, hugs from Texas,

-C

 

Ready to FALL in love

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But it is only August and I must be patient, but let it be known that my countdown to fall is ticking down! I start school next week, football is back on TV…. but it is still miserably hot with the humidity staying at 100%. UGH I am so ready for my favorite season, fall! There is nothing better than to be able to still wear shorts but have a long sleeve shirt on. BEST of BOTH worlds!

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This fall, my son and I are flying to go see my sister up north and it will be both of our first time on a plane! I have already began planning cute fall outfits and packing organization tips-hacks because I will need all the help I can get since I will be traveling with my son alone and to be organize will help my sanity.

Okay school, Fall semester of 2017: for the first time since coming back, I am only taking 12 hours this semester. Usually I take at least 15 hrs, but I feel like just catching my breath. I don’t know about y’all but I love shopping for school supplies! When you’re in college, you don’t need much. For me to study successfully I have to have a planner, cute pens, highlighters, and flashcards! I have had the same two, one inch binders and folders for the last four semesters. I couldn’t help to think I will be shopping for a kindergartner next time this year! But in all seriousness, I have really enjoyed my 6 week break! It was much needed!

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This fall I really want to finish up some projects around the farm. Summer here in Texas has made it impossible to accomplish the outside projects! I am very blessed to have A/C and that is where you will find me, if not lounging by a body of water! I also want to do a small remodel to our master bedroom and bathroom, so keep on the look out for before and after pics! But I will let ya know when that is happening.

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What are you most excited for, for this upcoming fall? Or what are your favorite past times during the fall times? Let me know below, and until next time, HUGS FROM TEXAS!

-C

Blog/ Life updates:

HI YALL!

I know, I have been very neglectful, but to be fair since the beginning of my summer break I took four courses in six weeks, so I was one busy mama! ONE OF THOSE COURSES WAS ADVANCED ANATOMY (I am a history major and accidentally signed up for this shit show), and I received my first “B” in that class, fml but hey I will take it!

Other big news: I got my IUD out in June, and while we aren’t trying to get pregnant now, we aren’t trying to not get pregnant for baby #2 ;). So perhaps instead of weight-loss updates, soon I will have a baby announcement to make.  Speaking of the devil, WEIGHT LOSS, well guys since I last spoke with you I have lost 3 pounds since may! Hey it isn’t a gain, but in all honesty, my diet has sucked since June and I have stopped swimming (laps)! I will not lie but the great news is, I have been able to maintain my control over my diet. It hasn’t been the cleanest, but I still monitor how much I eat and my binge eating hasn’t come back even though I have slacked on my “clean eating.” The struggle is still so real, and I finally feel like I can breathe!

I promise to get back on the wagon again…. I have no excuses.

Until next update- with love from Texas,

C

I can see the light

Howdy!

I am in my final week of my three-week mini Spanish course (praise Jesus, I will never do that again) and then I will be entering the next six weeks taking another nine hours…. At least I will have the last six weeks of summer to relax!

I CAN NOT BELIEVE IT IS JUNE! Time flies when you’re an adult. I just wish it would freeze for a minute.. With that being said, The first means UPDATE DAY!!! So here we go…

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I’m not going to get somewhere and say, ‘OK, I’m done.’ Success is never final; I’ll just keep on going. The same way as failure never being fatal. Just keep going. I’m going to the stars and then past them.

-Conor McGregor

Mondazes 

Hi y’all! I’m coming to you from my bathtub. Yes that’s right, I’m soaking in some hot water and my child is napping…. it has been pouring rain since last night and I woke up to Aunt Flo arriving a week early bringing with her major cramps!!! 

Life updates: 

I started a three-week mini course and right as that finishes I’m taking nine hours the first four weeks of the summer….. why?! don’t ask me, but I tend to love stresssssss. 

Farm updates: This week we added three new babies to the farm, and they’re so precious! 


I also realized after bringing them home, they needed to be separated from our rambunctious bucks so I had to think fast and create a fence line…… Sunday afternoon was spent building this not so pretty, but pretty much free fenceline:


I still need to finish painting the chicken coop and build the overhang, but who focuses on one project at a time?!?

Anyway, I hope this week treats you well! After this bath, I want to take a nap but not sure if that will happen! Today is just not going to be a productive day but guess what, I don’t mind!! 
Hugs from Texas, 

-C

What losing weight taught me:

Y’ALL I DID IT: I AM OVER THE -50 MARK!!!

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I posted this picture on a weight-loss support group I am in and the response flooded in, it is crazy to me how many people asked what I was doing (and then say they workout but still eat bad) or what I was taking…. Y’all you need to fuel your body with the right stuff and then you HAVE TO WORK OUT!!!! There is no pill or diet that is gonna be your miracle! You can’t starve yourself either, the right calories are not your enemy! It is a life CHANGE that first has to happen in your mind….. I have PCOS THE ODDS ARE AGAINST ME, BUT I WON’T LET IT STOP ME AND YOU SHOULDN’T EITHER!!!!

Here is my first ever publicly posting a (somewhat) before and current (not after) picture

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Y’all the picture on the left is not me at my highest weight…… I avoided full body pictures so I really don’t have any other than the ones I took for my own personal references (they’re too revealing to post on a blog)  The other picture I took on Friday when I was 49 pounds down….(excuse me i always look a hot mess, the top knot is my signature… I am a stay at home mom for crying out loud lmao sorry I look a mess, oh well)

So here are some things I have learned in the last few months during my journey:

1. The first change than has to happen is not your diet or fitness plan, it is within your mind.

I can’t stress this enough, you have to mentally be strong to overcome an eating addiction, especially doing it on your own. My entire life, I was picky eater. I never ate veggies and I loved soda. I craved fried foods, pizza, you name it and that is what I “survived” on. I am not saying you have to start off mentally strong, because Heaven knows I was weaker than and continue to gain mental strength, but you have to realize you’re doing this to live longer, not to lose the weight. Losing weight is a bonus. Being healthy both mentally and physically is the GOAL.

2.  It is hard-but you must keep going. It is not something you’re always gonna want to do, the struggles are real.

Like I stated above, it is a COMPLETE change and one that must happen in order to maintain it. A healthy lifestyle is not a six month diet and work-out plan. There are gonna be days where you want pizza, but guess what THAT IS OKAY! Have you a slice with a salad and move on. Don’t allow yourself to binge either, this is where the mental strength for me has to kick in and for some maybe you just need to avoid these foods all together so it is not a trigger. Eat veggies suck, but YOU MUST DO IT. Working out sucks-but YOU MUST DO IT! No one really wants to eat right-but you have to!!!!

3. Do NOT compare yourself!

What works for me, may not work for you. Talk to your doctor and really get to know yourself and your body! Never compare yourself to anyone or anything. You are perfect just the way you are no matter what. Only you can work to change your body, so why look at someone else and put yourself down. One day at a time, one choice at a time.

4. There is no such thing as I will be happy when….

Let’s face it, I told myself if I ever lost fifty pounds I was gonna get the boob reduction surgery and I would be so happy… But here I am fifty pounds and still want more! I thought when I lost that 50 I would be satisfied but I am not. However, I do love this process and even though I have a ways to go- I love me! I love who I have become and I love the strengths I have gained!  Do not tell yourself when I do this, I will be happy because you won’t. Live for today and choose to be happy now! You’re alive and you’re breathing, why isn’t that a good enough reason to BE HAPPY!

 5. For 26 years, I abused my body and to think 5 months is gonna change it, I would be wrong!

Yes, in December I set a goal of 60 pounds by June.. and if you have followed my blog I have set monthly goals and 3/5 months, I didn’t reach those goals, but guess what, I didn’t stop. Just because you think you have a time limit, doesn’t mean you should give up if you don’t reach it! I spent so many years doing the wrong things, I understand this is going to take me years to make amends with my body! Don’t look for quick fixes. There is no pill that I can take to help me. Well I am sure there are but lets be realistic, I refuse to take pills for personal family reasons and two, I won’t be on them for the rest of my life anyways! But what I will do for the rest of my life is EAT, so it takes determination and discipline to change.

6. DO NOT DRINK YOUR CALORIES!

THIS IS ALL I AM GOING TO SAY:

WATER! WATER! WATER! ALL DAY LONG!!!!!! You were designed for accomplishment, engineered for success, and endowed with the seeds of greatness.- Zig Ziglar
SO WATER THAT SEED! 😉

7.  NUMBERS DON’T DEFINE YOUR WORTH.

You are priceless! No number on a size tag or on a scale will define you! Sure weighing yourself  or tracking your measurements is a must when you loose weight to hold yourself accountable, but regardless, they’re just numbers. And if you choosing to do better, those numbers don’t matter!

8. Support is everything.

Find a friend or even a dr. that you can talk to or vent to. Lord knows my Dr. Is one of my best friends, every time I go see her I feel like I can be so open with her! Also my husband and best friend’s are honestly the best. Not only do they encourage me but they also pick me up when I am down. It is seriously a struggle, but don’t struggle alone.

9. You don’t need a gym to lose weight.

Get up and move! Walk! Take the stairs instead of the elevator! JUST MOVE!!! Of course I am an advocate of weights but there are so many things you can do to gain strength.

10.  Anything is possible.

Seriously, my dad always told me growing up, anything is possible if you set your mind to it. But the way I lived my life, I never saw that. Today, I do! The sky is not the limit, go above it! You can do ANYTHING YOU WANT!!!!!! One day at a time. One choice at a time!!! Stop making excuses for yourself! It was so easy for me to say I gained weight as a symptom of PCOS but the reality is that is an excuse. Sure a woman with PCOS tends to be “heavier” but PCOS does not define me and it sure as hell will never stop me. My reality was, I was choosing a poor lifestyle that didn’t help the symptoms of my PCOS! But since I made my change, my body is changing too! PCOS CAN’T AND WILL NEVER STOP ME!

YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL. YOU ARE WORTHY. AND YOU ARE IMPORTANT. DO GOOD TODAY, SO YOU CAN BE HERE TOMORROW!

with much love,

C

It had long since come to my attention that people of accomplishment rarely sat back and let things happen to them. They went out and happened to things.

-Leonardo da Vinci

Around the farm (updates)

LADIES AND GENTS WE ARE ALMOST DONE WITH THE CHICKEN COOP UPDATES AND NEW CHICK RUN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

We broke up so many pallets by hand and did the outside of the chicken coop. After we built the main back wall of the run… finishing it off with more pallets. (FREEEEEEE) okay we were trying to do this sucker cheap as possible, but I was tired of hammering pallets apart!!! I found a miter saw on sale at lowe’s and made the investment of a metal blade…. sawed right through those nails!!

Talk about workouts, I was lifting that heavy wood and so many 80 pound bags of concrete. ANDDDD I was my husband’s runner… if he needed water, if he forgot a tool up at the house, whatever he needed, I was always running.

I wanted to paint the back wall with the name of our farm, but I am now undecided… We are however pallet-ing off half of the wall on the left wall.. just like we did for the coop. We also trenched four feet into the ground and concreted that sucker… nothing is getting under this!

With one of the center beams for the roof structure we just made roosting poles!

(BTW: we got all of the pallets and center support beams for free; scavenging everywhere, asking everyone, and CL)

We still need to finish the side walls, 40% of the roof, and paint the chicken coop and poles…. Also we scored a really neat nesting box we need to install but I need to clean out the chicken coop and add new dirt and flooring in there!

we didn’t have anything to transport the chickens from our front yard to their new run and chicken coop.. so we threw them in the back of the truck and me and my son sat back there with them and fed them works… it was quite funny. (no animals were harmed)

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the chicks grazing in the front yard

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My son with his truck and his Daddy’s truck
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Piggy Smalls escaped and found a mud hole by the house!

 

It’s gonna be me…..

HAPPY MAY, Y’ALL!

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This year is flying by! I can not believe we are already into the FIFTH month of 2017! When you’re old, time flies quicker than it seemed to do when I was a child! It is a new month, which means new goals and an update post of my weight-loss…. so without anymore wasted time… here we go…

THE MONTH OF APRIL:

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Not the eleven I had set for last month’s goal, but I will take it. With this 7.8 pounds gone, brings me to a total of -47.3 pounds since 12.30.16! This month I want to reach 55 pounds!!!!!! I am actually really happy about this past month for several reasons: one, I did not even want, or feel bad about not indulging in my son’s birthday cake and cupcake decorating festivities! And two, I am really starting to like looking in the mirror and taking pictures.  You don’t realize how much you didn’t like yourself until you really start to see the change that is slowly happening with this journey.

For such a long time, I didn’t like looking at myself. Perhaps, it was more or less I didn’t like looking at my actual reality which faced me in the mirror. Sometimes I feel like we allow ourselves to make excuses for the way we are. Mine for a long time was PCOS… but I can’t do that anymore, and I never, ever, ever want to go back.  My husband brought up something that made me cry; I am very open with my weight with my best friend, but I would have never let my husband see my beginning weight because yes, I was very very embarrassed. One day, I sent a text to my best friend of me on the scale (from the beginning: my highest weight) and comparing it to what I was at that day….

My husband said to me, “you know, I don’t know how to bring this up but I saw a pic on your phone of you on the scale and now I see why you never wanted to talk about it…” I instantly cried and he instantly felt like an asshole. But he was right and it was me who was an asshole. For such a long time, I abused myself. I let myself become a stranger that was weak. I wasn’t crying because I was sad… NO, I am almost to 50 pounds so I know I am on the right path, but my tears were coming from being so ashamed of what I did.

(Bless my sweet husband, he just held me as I cried and was made sure he expressed that he has always loved me and thought I was beautiful. He let me know how proud he was of me that I am taking control of my life and becoming the leader I was born to be)

I look back, and I am so ashamed. I was killing myself and I gave no F*CKS. I wasn’t being the best possible me, so how was I ever a good wife. I am with a man who has loved me unconditionally for 8 years, but I couldn’t love me. Mentally, with my weight-loss I have, and still continue to grow stronger.

 You are worthy, you are loved, and you are perfect. Do better, be better.

-C

“Make moves or make excuses”

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